Everyone.

I search for your face in the crowd,
"I won't love again", I vowed.
I felt a sting of hurt as our eyes met;
I guess that's the lightest punishment I can get;
for letting our love die just like that,
maybe my words didn't come out right;
maybe they were too flat.

Days go on without loving you;
at least that's what I tell myself;
you look happy from my view;
do I look the way you do?

A smile plastered on my face;
a reluctant yearn for a repulsive embrace?
A healing scar left in the past;
a love that came and went;
all too fast?

All my friends are doing fine;
but I'm the only one stuck in time;
I'm the only one crying over you,
and you still don't see the pain you're putting me through.

I don't want to start this letter;
but it's already begun.
I dream of all we could have been;
an act out of a movie scene;
Unlock my heart 'cause you've got the key.

Everyone's happy.
Except for me.

Butterfly

You were like a butterfly that landed on my hand;
you were broken, fragile, and unable to move;
so I took care of you until you could stand.

You looked around, clearly scared;
but trying not to let your emotions show;
You settle down with your wings;
since you've got no other place to go.

Who would have known love would start between you and I?
I never thought losing you would make me cry;
you were the butterfly that had taken away my soul;
I'm trying hard to stand;
but I'm losing all control.

Your wings just swept past me;
without saying goodbye,
you looked at me with sad eyes;
then flew off into the sky.

IT'S YOU

It's not about what we hope,
It's not about all our dreams,
It's about this problems we need to cope,
which had make my head screams...

It's not a problem you think,
or this tingle connection that link,
It's about the truth,
The right that I had to put.

I know I'd been injustice,
to you and our memories.
However I don't want any prejudice,
that might worse our connection.

I want to apologize,
for what I had done wrong.
I should have forgotten everything.
However, I want it to stay for long,
and hope that you'll be coming
one day, no matter what's right.

The lies, I can't forget.
The truth, I don't want to forget.
We've been playing a game,
not to make either win or fame.
It's just something we're good at,
to feel easy around each other.

You have your ego, I have my pride.
Everyone has good and bad side.
But your bad side is something I crave,
for that is what I had rave.

I hesitate before I call,
because you're not there when i fall.
Or were you the one who push me?
I don't know, I didn't see.

All I know, nothing you can do
to make me hate you.
For that is what myself had promised.
and you... are the only thing I'd missed.

By. Fadhilla Anandita.

dedicated to someone I'd wished to meet and apologize for,
Lim Hao Yang. :)

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