Losing you

I'd been mourning for losing you....
I spent months forgetting what to do...
I'd been dumb for living in my dream,
and didn't show when my head wants to scream.

Now I've awaken from a long sleep
and had promises that I should keep.

I didn't want to torture myself anymore.
Though all I needed is to love you,
but hurting myself is not what I'm searching for.
I'll give the best to myself, that's what I vowed to do.